EP.76 In the gap under the tongue. (2)
In the gap under the tongue (2)
What is the stench?
It was a word Namgoongbia had been thinking about since she was a child.
Why do you smell things other people can’t smell?
Because of that, Namgoongbia knew that her life had fallen into hell.
A life where you can eat comfortably, talk comfortably, and even sleep is a hell.
How can I get out of it?
Namgoongbia continued to wander in the blinding fog.
The fortunate thing is that there is a moment when you can overcome the only stench.
when wielding a sword.
Only then, the world gives Namgoongbia a sense of liberation.
So, Namgoongbia started obsessing over the sword rather than obsessing over it.
It was because I was able to get the illusion that I couldn’t feel anything at the moment I was dancing the sword dance.
So I swung my sword every day.
The stench that came after a moment’s sword dance was still there, and the stench of those who watched their sword dance became stronger.
As long as there is no bad smell at the moment of Namgoongbia’s sword dance.
He harbored the hope that one day, when he saw the tip of the sword he desired, this too would disappear.
When he saw a swordsman stronger than himself, he asked for a sword dance, and other than that, he only used his time to train his martial arts.
As it grew, the stench in the house grew stronger and stronger.
I was reluctant to talk to people, so I became less talkative.
Their yearnings, desires, envy and jealousy are clearly felt along with the stench.
Is there a cause of the bad smell?
Also, Namgoongbia was not convinced.
It seemed there was something else.
Day by day, he lost his expression more and more.
I couldn’t remember when I last laughed.
Perhaps the day I completely lost it was the day my mother died.
I was getting tired of the sensation I felt even when I blocked my nose.
He wanted to live alone in the mountains, but Sega would not leave him alone.
Everyone’s stench is getting stronger, but especially in the gap, his younger brother was a burden.
The various emotions in the eyes that are getting more and more excessive.
I felt that Namgoongbia was becoming more and more burdened by the words she couldn’t understand.
Will there really be peace at the tip of the sword he desires?
Will there be peace at the end of a life that endures to the end?
Or maybe it’s that I’m holding on stupidly.
On the days when I was worried every day at the edge of the cliff.
met that person
It was the first time.
It was the feeling that there was no stench in my life.
As if clearing away the thick fog, only silence existed by his side.
The fierce-looking eyes, the grunting tone, and the obvious sense of distance, asking that you please don’t come near me.
Namgoongbia was able to find comfort in that gap.
No bad smell.
A person who lacks the desire felt by others and is surrounded by some unknown sense of impatience and guilt.
I wanted to ask him someday because he seemed to think of someone else when he looked at me from time to time.
Who are you looking for?
What do you want to say, that’s why you’re showing those eyes?
In the end, she couldn’t ask, so Namgoongbia still didn’t know what to say.
What Dang So-yeol asked me one day keeps coming back to me these days.
say you like him
At the time, I didn’t think it was Namgoongbia.
What I had for him at that time was obviously not love.
‘now?’
So is it different now?
I asked myself, but no answer came back.
It was a more difficult feeling than it was about the stench.
I swung my sword in the back mountain and our eyes met.
The first thing that caught my eye was the back of my hand, which looked like it was injured.
I was surprised to see it and tried to approach it.
At the same time, I felt a fishy scent.
It was shallow, but it was definitely a stench.
Namgoongbia felt as if the world was collapsing.
Thinking again and again, I grabbed him and sniffed him.
I hope it isn’t.
It was a refuge that Namgoongbia had finally found.
I can eat comfortably and I don’t have nightmares when I sleep.
I was able to walk among people.
I’m just getting to know them one by one.
…even this was something that should not be lost.
Was it fortunately an illusion?
The fishy smell that emanated from him soon faded away.
As I regained my peace as if nothing had happened, I unknowingly lost strength in my legs and sat down.
He came over and carefully wiped away the cold sweat.
He grabbed his arm and brought it to the tip of his nose.
It was an act that he did without even realizing it, out of a sense of impatient fear of losing it again.
‘I see.’
Namgoongbia could feel the emotion of despair.
The serenity that would have been better if I didn’t know informed me of the fear of losing myself.
I see
I can’t let him go now
The thought that the seemingly meaningless title of fiancée might be a blessing that he could not have had been swirling in his head lately.
I imagined life without him.
A life that has to live in the stench again.
Will he ever be able to live in it again?
Namgoongbia held his hand tighter at the unimaginable story.
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Namgoongbia’s condition seems strange, so I took her down to the dorm.
Why are you sweating so much?
They say you can’t catch a cold in the summer, but could it be that I’m sick?
‘Mu-in is sick…’
It’s really hard to take that from the point of view that has a bet.
Especially if it’s an unmanned person at the level of Namgoongbia.
Then, wondering if there was more to the problem than body aches, he asked the doctor to go to the doctor, so he shook his head and went to wash himself.
“Bocchan, Bocchan!”
Around dinner time, Wi Seol-ah was persistently next to her.
Earlier, when I saw the back of my injured hand, I was about to burst into tears, so it was difficult to soothe it.
Wi Seol-ah seems to have been obsessed with cooking lately and has been making something.
Meals are provided by the volcano.
Of course, since it’s a school, it doesn’t matter that a splendid meal comes out, but it didn’t matter because it was just a part that I needed to fill my stomach anyway.
‘…I don’t think I’ve had dumplings lately.’
It felt like I hadn’t eaten in the past few days.
I’ll have to eat it when I go to the prefecture later.
‘I won’t be going for a while.’
Because of the location of the volcanic wave, it was not difficult to go down once.
I picked up an unknown food brought by Wi Seol-ah and ate it.
The anticipation in his eyes was very burdensome.
I spit it out more than that.
“It’s salty.”
“…G…really?”
His eyes widened in laughter at every word he said.
Knowing that it was food that he had been working hard on, he patted his head and revealed that it was a joke.
“It’s okay to lie.”
“Hhh…. I’m joking around again…!”
“It’s because the reaction is so funny.”
It felt like there was no problem with stroking my hair now.
Could it be because of the reduced hesitation?
Wi Seol-ah, who put her head in my hands, was looking at me with poopy eyes like a puppy.
I felt something strange, so I grabbed Wi Seol-ah’s cheek with both hands and stretched it out.
“Ebebebebe!”
“…The world keeps increasing, right?”
what texture is this? In the past, I remembered Goo Hee-bi’s surprise when she touched her cheek at Sega, and I sympathized with her.
It felt like this.
“Eup…”
“Oh, sorry.”
I must have pulled it too hard. Wi Seol-ah stroked my cheek and glared at me slightly.
Looking at it, I asked.
“By the way, what about Noya?”
I didn’t think that Wisole would return to the Volcano Squad alone.
I thought the swordsman must have come with me, but I can’t see the swordsman.
Wi Seol-ah answered while touching her slightly reddened cheek.
“Grandpa said he was going somewhere because he had a job!”
“…work.”
Leaving Wiseolah aside, what did Geomjon have to do in Seomyeon?
It wasn’t that I was worried about Sword Zone now, but I was just curious.
The reason why he dared to follow him all the way to Seomseo, and the fact that he has faith in this place.
The fact that Shin’s grandson was Jegal Hyuk.
“…what’s so many?”
Health after the disappearance of a literati of the Volcanic School.
Even if one thing explodes, it seems like a big deal, but it seems that several things are grouped together.
It felt like there was something intertwined in the middle.
“young master.”
“huh?”
“Your face has become ugly again…”
“…What man?”
It was an ugly attack I hadn’t heard in a long time.
It wasn’t particularly shocking, perhaps because I’d heard that he looked like a praying mantis.
“You can’t go anywhere and say that.”
“why…?”
“…really ugly kids get hurt.”
“But if you make that face, you look ugly…”
“…yes.”
When Wi Seol-ah said that, a dagger stabbed her in the chest. So pretty things.
He probably said it because he was frowning at the complex situation, but it seemed like he should take the time to correct his words next time.
[…I think I said it because I was really ugly…]
‘Please be quiet.’
It still hurts my heart, but he sets fire to it….
I ate a few more grass and finished dinner roughly.
Namgungbia didn’t come out to eat, probably because she was in a bad condition, so I told her to go and get some.
I want to take a short walk and look around.
– Ha ha!
– Take care of your legs!
– The arms are hanging out!
Perhaps in the middle of the final training session, the shouts of the three great disciples could be heard outside.
It must be because of the shoe show that will open in a little while.
Should I say it feels like a martial arts battle between disciples of Hwasan?
I’ll probably go back to Sega once that’s over.
When I asked Youngpoong, I was told that it would be over in a day or two, so it wouldn’t be too long.
I was hoping that nothing would happen in it.
‘The problem is the magic I saw earlier.’
The miscreants of the Dark Night Palace I saw during the day.
For some reason, it seemed too cloudy inside to be called Magi.
To be precise, it looked poor quality or incomplete.
It is a level that looks cheap on a different level from the magic that was scattered by demons of the Demonic Cult.
That’s why I thought it wouldn’t be related to the Heavenly Demon.
[Are you thinking about them?]
“…Yes, there is something a little uncomfortable about it.”
[Are they famous?]
“They aren’t famous, but they aren’t hiding either.”
Right now, the head of the Dark Night Palace herself was a master representing Sapa.
Even when Black Dragon Sword, a famous Sapa master in the past, was killed by Geomjon, he was the one who kept his place.
‘I was too indifferent.’
Maybe it’s because I thought it would disappear after being pushed away by the Moorim Meng after a few years.
It was a very complicated feeling to think that the Dark Night Palace had something about Magi that I thought the Heavenly Demon had brought out.
“There is someone I missed, so I won’t just go over it.”
[It’s definitely a volcanic area, and I know that it must have entered the long gate, so I won’t move easily.] To be
honest, I thought about that and just went out halfway, but it didn’t look like they would just kill their tails and stop moving.
‘First of all, Maehwaseon will take care of what’s left here.’
There are so many other things to think about going forward.
Even if he tried to find out about the Dark Night Palace right away, it was impossible in Shaanxi.
Leaving behind the painful thoughts and walking towards the dorm, someone runs from afar.
“Old small cooperative!”
It was a young wind drenched in sweat.
What the hell is that…?
“Yeongpung Dojo…?”
“Are you on your way to evening training?”
“yes…? no?”
“The air is good tonight. If you practice, you will get really good energy!”
“…Ah yes.”
He must have been like this since morning, right?
[He’s the least favorite of the later generations. With that level of talent and this level of effort, this guy will definitely become the No. 1 Sword of Hwasan in the near future.] Just as
Shin Noya said very proudly.
If the future of Young Poong is determined, it will be like that.
That is, unless some lunatic bastard slams the volcano down on his own.
“…Fuck.”
“yes? What did you say to the former Sohyup?”
“No, no. nothing.”
“Ah… I see. If you have a plan, how about doing an evening training together?”
Youngpoong’s expression was still bright as he recommended it again even after seeing him go through such hardships in the morning.
I had a lot of work to do today, so I was in the mood to go and lie down right away.
Just like during the day, seeing Youngpoong doing that kind of thing made me feel like I was being stimulated a bit.
“Let’s go.”
Yes, I will sleep as soon as I go anyway, so I can practice a little before I go.
I said … and immediately regretted it within a few minutes.
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It’s like a crazy volcano.
“…uhhhh.”
Evening practice, which started with stimulation, could not endure half of it and ran away.
Aside from general training, what kind of crazy guy made a cliff climb with a rock on his back and put it in?
Other than that, he repeated all sorts of training without a break.
I was dying from my muscles screaming, but Young-Pung seemed happy even with that.
How could such a person be blocked by a wall in the future?
Was there any reason?
[Don’t you think that it became more like that because you stimulated it?]
“No matter how simple a person is, wouldn’t a person change like that with just one sword?”
[That’s something you don’t know.]
Was the dance with me so shocking?
If so, it was fortunate that it had achieved what it had intended, but if it had changed like that in an instant, it would have been terrifying as it was.
When I finally couldn’t stand it and said I’d go first, Yeongpung looked sad and said he’d go to sleep.
I didn’t even listen properly and came down quickly.
Being caught up in this and that from daytime and lying around in training until evening with a tired body, my body was exhausted to the utmost.
I went down to the dorm, washed my body with cold water to cool off, and changed my clothes.
I wanted to go to sleep.
I felt like I was going to sleep really well today because I didn’t sleep well the night before.
Thinking so, I opened the door.
Drurrureuk-
“Broken…!”
Drurruk Tak.
“…?”
Unknowingly, I opened the door and immediately closed it.
I think there must have been Namgoongbia and Wiseolah inside.
I must have looked at it wrong…?